Thread:DeadRaiser/@comment-3319203-20130426214048/@comment-3319203-20130427034052

Mmm, to me the whole point of what we once had is no longer great. To me it doesn't really matter anymore, ans that's because I found an amazing, awesome guy who loves me and I love back. I can now see that I have given up on struggling to make amends with WFW and anyone else. Obviously they're immature if they can't forgive and move on, and I pity them, because I don't think they ever learned how. I had to teach Meadow to forgive another person, and the sad thing that is they waste more time on the internet then I ever have. I have found a purpose in life. A goal, a destiny I want to be part of. I want to be Grizabella from Cats, I want to be Eponine in Les Miserables, and I want to be the Phantom from Phantom of the Opera. No, I don't just want, if I need to verbally soar and raise the flag of freedom for the roles, then I will. And guess what? I found some way to move on. I have become more mature than I was before. And that took me a long, long, LONG time to do. If someone tells me otherwise I will just laugh at them. It takes god damn guts to get on a stage. It's not easy, with a former social outcast such as myself, especially to be able to say right now at the age I'm at, 14 next month, to say, "This is what I want to do and nothing is standing in the way of my career choice." Zaffie, Forestpaw13, Birchy, I really don't give a hell what they think of me. They can cry, whine, scream at me. But I am strong, and I'm done with their immaturity and inconcievable emotions which proves to me that they, despite being older than me, that I am secure about who I am. And I'm done with those kinds of people. Those kinds of people become unsuccessful in life becsuse of how they treat others. I look back at my past and laugh at how foolish everyone, not only me, was. We all fought over easily fixable arguments, and the admins, who are TEENAGERS, went on a ban spree. I can look back, toss back my head and laugh, because if what little children we all acted. And Bloodstar18- I forgive him. Why should I, when he threatened me severely? Because he needs help for his anger, the poor guy. An anxiety medication will help, I took them a while ago when I was having hyperactivity and stress issues. If anyone needs a self-esteem boost, it's all those people I once knew as people but saw their true selves and lost sight of humans and saw only monsters.

But Dead, may I reassure I am not suggesting you a monster. Not in the least. I'm just stressed about that skank in my class and how that relates to oast events. I'm done now if my words haven't bored your eyes out.